Author Serene interviews Theresa Morgan, a character from her upcoming novel, “Virtuous. The Lies I told Myself”
Author Serene – Theresa, thank you so much for allowing us to interview you. Not everyone would agree to do this, especially knowing that they may receive backlash…Let’s jump right in…Theresa, there have been rumors. The buzz in the street is that you are involved with a certain married man. First, is this true?
Theresa – First, let me say, I am not afraid of backlash. I don’t deserve it and I won’t take it. Yes, we are in a relationship.
Author Serene – And is that relationship with Pastor Anthony?
Theresa – He is my pastor.
Author Serene – I understand that he is your pastor. Is he the person you are in this relationship with?
Theresa – I did not realize we were using names in this interview. But I guess it is what it is now.
Author Serene – So would that be a yes?
Theresa – I’m not denying that it’s him.
Author Serene – Do you feel guilty about this?
Theresa – No. Not at all. I got over that a long time ago. First, he is in love with me, not her. Second, I am not technically cheating on anyone. He makes his own decisions and he makes me his choice
Author Serene – Since the rumors have come out, he has not spoken of divorce. How can you say that you are his choice?
Theresa – The only reason he doesn’t use the ‘d’ word is because of the church. His wife is manipulating him to stay. If he leaves her then he loses the church.
Author Serene – But the church was founded by her father and mother. How do you see that as manipulation?
Theresa – She is holding that over his head. He works hard. He is called to be a pastor and he put in a lot of time. His work has nothing to do with his marriage
Author Serene – Could you see yourself as his first lady? Is that your goal?
Theresa – I’m already his first lady.
Author Serene – Do you believe that God will send you your own husband?
Theresa – I don’t understand the question. What makes you think that God hasn’t already sent him to me? I am more than confident, that in time, this mess will be straightened out and we will be married.
Author Serene – Do you feel like he is using you?
Theresa – Absolutely not! He loves me and I love him. If anything, he is using her. When he comes to me, he gets his strength back.
Author Serene – Some call it having their cake and eating it too. In your opinion, why hasn’t he left her?
Theresa – Because of the church. If he stays, he keeps the church. Unless she dies or something, then he would be free to marry me
Author Serene – Are you planning that, her death?
Theresa – Not at all, but hey, whatever happens, happens. I don’t hate her or anything. I just don’t like that she holds the church over his head. I mean, just because it was her father’s church, she gets to hold the control.
Author Serene – Describe your ideal mate.
Theresa – Someone I don’t have to share. He loves me and me only.
Author Serene – What are you most afraid of?
Theresa – I am not afraid of anything. I just don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to die alone. I want to be able to have years of love. I want children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. I don’t want all of this backlash to ruin what we have. I don’t want him to leave me
Author Serene – What would be the worst thing to happen if you don’t have those things? If he left you?
Theresa – I think I would die. I don’t want to be alone anymore. If I can’t be loved, then I may as well die.
Author Serene – What do you like least about yourself?
Theresa – That at the end of the day I am alone. I hate that about myself. I hate that I am not good enough to be number one. I hate that I am not good enough to be the ‘only’ one. I hate that no matter how much I give, it hasn’t been enough. I hate that even if I wanted to, I don’t have enough in me to leave him.
Author Serene – Are you lying to yourself?
Theresa – No. I am not. Our love is not a lie. Our relationship is not a lie. I’ve put too much into this for it to be a lie.
Author Serene – What do you want people to know about you?
Theresa – I want people to know that I have a heart. I am more than a ‘side chick’. I am a woman who is in love. I’m not a thot, I’m not a ho. My heart breaks more than people realize. Most of all, don’t hate me because he chooses to love me. Everyone wants to be loved, including me.
Author Serene – Theresa, yes, I do believe that we all want to be loved. Thank you for your time and honesty in this interview and for giving us insight into your heart. I am looking forward to interviewing you again very soon!